Merry Christmas!!

Thank God I still meet the Christmas this year. Thank God all my family are healthy. Thank God I still love myself, thank God I'm still breathing..

This year, I pass the Christmas, feel lonely and annoyed by my semester test :( Imagine that in 26th Dec I have to go through two exams! And one of them is so so so difficult for me. Well I had plan to visit my sister in Malang, but I decided to cancel it because of that... exam. 

So here I am, pray alone at my room, got no family by my side, no "Holy Night" song on my ear. I just feel so lonely. And I kinda miss my ex, not in loving way duh, but I want to see him, talk to him like we're just friends and nothing happened with us. Maybe its just the habit that I spent most of my days with him, and HOP! More than two months we didnt see each other, and well.. I kinda miss him. Maybe we should forgive each others, and begin the friendship from the start again. But maybe it won't happen in next months, because of some reasons...

And I feel lonely. Did I say that for couple of times? :p 

I feel empty. Like I want someone by my side, but he won't. And I already accept that reality. He feels just... so far away. I miss him, for sure. But strangely when he's around, I freezed and my body heated up, so I decided to get as far as possible from him. Duh :/

I feel relief that I have a lot of friends now. I won't be alone. Just hangout, run the chatting, it makes me feel that I AM HERE. But strangely I cried this night. I dont know, maybe because I'm... lonely? Wahahahaha you'd just get bored with me writing "Lonely" hehehehe.

Merry Christmas all! Hope you don't have the Lonely Christmas like me :) God Bless you all

Wanna have these kind of items!

I'd just opened http://www.berrybenka.com/ and found so many items that I want to have :)) 

 

 

 

 This shoes is super duper cute! I will have my mom buy me this :P

By the way, my mom got me a cute panda bag. But I can't found the picture :( Just take a look of it you can remember about elementary school bag and I almost 20 years old hahaha. But I'm veterinarian, dude.. Our world is about animal :D

And the problems is, I'm running out of money huahh. I'd just buy two bags this week, and my mom's present too. Moreover my dad's birthday is coming up at 31th december. Whoaaa how could I get so much money? :(

New Life

What I prayed for a few months ago was already answered! 

FYI, buatku bulan Oktober itu yah.. spesial kalo aku bilang. Jadi gini, bulan Oktober tahun 2008, aku jatuh cinta buat pertama kali. Sebut aja namanya F. Dia cinta pertamaku, dan dua tahun tepat setelahnya, aku jatuh cinta lagi ke mantanku satu-satunya Gideon. Cuma sehari bisa bikin aku ngelupain si F.

Dan sekarang... Bulan Oktober kemarin, aku mulai ngerasain hal aneh, ya kayak crush gitu ke someone, sebut aja L. Nggak penting dia siapa, tapi perlahan-lahan dia bikin aku ngelupain mantanku yang udah nyakitin hatiku banget. Berbulan-bulan aku doa dan doa, semoga aku bisa gak lagi terpaku sama mantanku, dan aku ketemu L ini hahaha. Emang sih gak secepet itu, butuh waktu sebulan sampai akhirnya aku sadar kalo perasaanku sekarang lebih condong ke L, bukan ke mantanku..

Puji Tuhan banget!

Sejak saat itu hidupku kembali up. Hari-hariku sibuk dengan kuliah, teman-teman, organisasi, latian Taekwondo lagi, dan... mengagumi *tiiit* of course hahahahaha. Rasanya seneng banget sekarang. I never cried anymore since that. Rasanya bebaaaaas ngelakuin apa yang aku mau.

Dan beberapa minggu setelah aku lost contact ama mantan, dia ngontak aku lagi. Dia bilang kangen bla bla bla. Aku jujur ke dia kalo sekarang udah ada someone masuk ke hidupku. Dan kalian tahu, dia marah, dia tuding aku yang ngekhianati dia, dia tuduh aku yang nggak setia ama dia, dia anggep seakan-akan aku yang salah. Padahal kenyataannya, dia yang tinggalin aku, dia yang bikin aku terlalu sakit kali ya sampe-sampe udah nggak mau kenal lagi ama itu orang. 

Namanya juga hidup. Jadi yang pertama aku bahagia banget waktu jadian ama mantan, sampai akhirnya aku ngalamin masa-masa paling down di hidupku juga gara-gara mantan. Dan sekarang, perlahan tapi pasti hidupku mulai tertata lagi, dan aku sadar banyak di luar sana hal yang jauh lebih penting daripada dia :)

Dan hal kedua, tentang KARMA. Dua orang yang paling aku benci, itu si mantan dan mantannya mantan. aduh ribet -_-

Jadi, pertama mereka berdua bersenang-senang nggak peduliin aku dulu yang sedih banget karena mantanku balikan ama mantannya. 

Dan akhirnya, mantanku balik lagi ama aku. Aku lihat gimana sakitnya itu cewe. KARMA PERTAMA = SELESAI

Dan setelah itu, aku disia-siain lagi. Aku hilang rasa ke mantan, dan sekarang mantanku tahu aku sayang ke orang lain, dan dia... sakit hati. KARMA KEDUA = SELESAI.

Jadi, emang karma does exist =) dont play with it =)))

Random Question

It was night when I said this to my boyfriend, “What will you choose, I left you die, or I left you for another man?”

He thought for a sec, and said, “Hmmmm… you left me die.”

And I just laughed.

What about… I left you for another man then you go die? #evillaugh

Hahaha. Justkidding. I love him, still ;)

What Breed is My Dog?

I have a dog, his name is Mokka. He's been on my home since March 2008. When he came to the earth he's soooo cute, so round, fatty <3 Now he's four years old already. He is charming, brave, and still cute :*

Here's his photo :

  

The problem is, I dont know what type of dog he is. But I do some research on internet, and I found some that probably is his type. Here we are :

Basset Fauve de Bretagne

Energy

Activity
Affection
Friendship with other dogs
Friendship with strangers
Training
Watch dog
Guard dog
Grooming

         

He's quite resemble with my dog, his size is about 40 cms, same with Mokka. He's also not too active, friendly with strangers and other dogs, and quite hard to train. But let's take a look with his ears. Mokka has a triangle shape, go down, and not too big. Different, huh?

or

 Norfolk Terrier

Energy
Activity
Affection
Friendship with other dogs
Friendship with strangers
Training
Watch dog
Guard dog
Grooming

         

 Now, his ears is looking same with my dog, but its data said that he's only have weight about 5-6 kgs. Its way toooo small, Mokka is about 20kgs I think. But his expression when he laughed (pic 2) is same with my dog. And the same description is his ability to watch around my house is excellent. He knows the different between stranger and my family when we entered home. He's also not afraid with strangers. And sometimes he catching some mouse too (its data said he also good on catching vermin)

So, I still don't know what exactly the type of my dog is. And FYI, he's not a pure breed, because his mother is a local dog which live in Indonesia (I don't know what is his Latin's name). So maybe, the different with two kinds of dog above, it because the genetic from his mother.

I hope some veterinarian will pay a visit to my blog and see my post, then decided what type of Mokka is. Hahahaha :))